Confusion

What do you want from me?
But I guess I already know..
So many people, so many reasons -
to be my friend, or to be something else?
Taking so much

Its more than I can handle,
its a struggle just to breathe.
Being crushed and weighed down by the choices i've made,
and the people i've chosen to see..

And you too? This cant be happening.
No, not to me.
I thought you were different, I thought you were what I needed.
Ruining everything, changing and deforming it -
I've got to rewind

Its more than I can handle,
its a strugle just to breathe.
Being crushed and weighed down by the choices i've made,
and the people i've chosen to see..

But what do I do now?
In spite of everything, I dont want to hurt you
I cant think - I want it to be right so badly,
that I may just convince my self it is.
But its not supposed to be like this -
its not what I want -

Cant you see?