Thoughts on Gardening

I love to garden. I'm not quite sure why, maybe it's because getting down in the dirt triggers some distant memory of when I was a kid making mudpies. Maybe it's because I secretly crave power, and I find joy in controlling how much water or soil a plant gets. I could go on and on with possible reasons of why I enjoy it, but that's just me. I love to know what makes us all tick, and I constantly look for reasons as to why this or that happens, or why someone feels a certain way. But this morning, I find myself thinking along a different path. What if there is no 'reason' that I like to garden, what if some things just, are? Is that even possible? I'll probably never know, but for now I'd just like to think that I enjoy gardening not becuase of a memory or a power trip, but simply becuase I am me. Ya, I think I like the sound of that

In all things of natur there is something of the marvelous

~Aristotle

A Day At The Beach!

Ah the beach, one of my favorite things about California. Nothing beats curling your toes in the warm sand, the constant roar of the waves crashing, that after a while almost becomes like a white noise, sitting by a bonfire with a smore in your hand, watching the sun set with the ones you love.


This beach trip was especially special. One of our last days of youthful fun, It was just a couple of days before our graduation. Amongst all the smiles and laughs, I still had that burning question, the seed of doubt in the back of my mind. "How many more days, moments, like this will we all share together?"



But I try and shoo those types of thoughts away. You can't live your whole life on a "what if?" and you cant spend your whole life waiting for an end, because then you never get to enjoy the journey, or appreciate all of the new beginnings.



Especially at this point in my life, when I seem bombarded by one ending after another. But each ending will soon turn into a fresh start, just like every sunset turns into a sunrise. So we laughed, we sang, we drew every worry from our minds and forgott the dark horizon, and lived for today. Because there really is nothing better than a day at the beach with your friends. Well, I cant speak for the others, but that is how I felt. After all, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift. That's why it's called the present."


Remember, always leave room in your heart for love.

Just keep walking

I need to know
just what it is
that you're trying not to show?
Except for this.

And in case you cant see
these deep dark cries,
just take this plea.
Reject those lies!

Because while I quake
with anticipation and fear,
keep on walking, for my sake
and forget this silent tear.

Scattered thoughts bombard my mind
from a time, I cannot say.
I cant close my eyes from the stupid rules
in a world where I'm just one of the fools
trying to remember the easy, the kind
such things must exist today.

They must.

I know you're wondering
just exactly why Im here
what's the word, what am I doing
when everything, and nothing seems so clear.

And as your light shines out
across a dark purple sky
you hold me up and we shout
and we laugh, and we cry.

We leave our footprints on a cold sandy shore
and see that we are both entirely wrong
the continuing current reclaims us once more
while both of our souls hang there in the fog

Dont Stay In The Sky

She is running through a cloud
because she doesnt know where else to be.
Lost escaping from the crowds
just trying to be free.

But be careful little girl
there isnt much security way up high
just hanging there above the world
barely staying in the sky.

Then when it starts to rain
and you're diving towards the ground
shooting back into the pain
trapped amongst the sound.

So dont stay in the sky little girl
keep down here on earth
because when you are alone so high
you may never find what you're worth.

For You..

I've got to do this,
must see it through.
Because I've put my dreams on a list,
and at the top of it is you.

Because it's that time again,
and I'm not sure if it's right.
All I know is that I need you, my friend,
Before you are stole away with the night.

And I know it's not the best of times,
but it certainly can't be the worst.
But in ten years when you read these lines,
I hope I'm no longer cursed.

I'm not sure what to make of you
because this has never happened before
I don't even know what is true
just hoping for an answer to was ashore
But what does it even matter?
the ball is out of my court
and while I'm trying to think, all i can here is the chatter
of what everyone else will say. But I fear time's running short
because I'm nervous for the first time
afraid for a soul to move
and as I try and remember my line
Ive found Ive got something to prove

Its all coming down to this
everything that's to be had here
and the words hanging on your lips,
trying to break past that fear.

And as this warm air shines down
melting all that hostility, some of the harm
and the rest set on the ground
for someone else to find.

And while I'm caught, past the eye of the storm
and can see that the worst is just about done
I'm back in the past, staring at such a great chasm
stuck behind everything that will happen
just standing there in the sun

Hey all. You have probably by now have noticed something a little bit different about the blog. Yep! I thought it was time to give it a 'face lift' to kick off the new year - and I'm not done yet! Along with the change in look, I will start doing something a new that I saw on another blog and thought was really cool. I know I love to read, and am always looking for a good book, so I figured some of you might be too. So, I'm going to be starting a 'teaser' post every so often.
Here is how it works:
~take the book you are currently reading
~pick two lines, and post them in a comment here
~be sure to include the title and author of the book, and try to avoid any spoiler lines.

And that's it! If you aren't reading a book at the moment, you can just use one that you have already read ;)