Video message of the day - november 25!

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To Write Love on her Arms

Today is TWLOHA day. For those of you who dont know, To Write Love on Her Arms is a non profit organization, which raises money to increase awarness and support for those dealing with depression, substance abuse, and suicide. (more info. on their vision can be found at http://www.twloha.com/vision/)



Through out my years in high school and now in college I have seen both directly (people whom I know and see often) and indirectly (people whom I run into from time to time, and even people who I dont know) the consequences that all of these issues have on those involved and the people around them. Depression and addiction is a dangerous slope- one that is almost impossible to escape with out some form of help. Many people who are dealing with these issues find themselves feeling utterly alone and lost, and I feel that it is up to all of us to offer a hand in help and friendship, and say "it's ok, I'm here". That's why I'm asking all you out there in blog land to join me today in writing the word LOVE on your arms. And when someone stops and asks what it is there for, tell them about TWLOHA, or you could even give them a copy of this post, because awarness is the first step.



Remember,

Help, just like healing, happens one step at a time.

It's Just Hot Air

MEMORANDUM
TO: People everywhere
FROM: Little old me
RE: The Greatest thing since sliced bread?
DATE: November 7, 2009

We all get a big head every now and then-but you've always got to keep yourself in check. Remember, the best leaders are the ones who are willing to follow.

For the most part, I like to consider myself a friendly, confident person. And looking back at some of the things I have accomplished in my 18 years so far, it seems to fit the bill. Or at least it did. You see, usually when I get started with something, I stick it out for a very long time; but sometimes, it's easy to forget that the way I end things is never the way I begin them.

Another little tid-bit about me: if there is ever something that I decide I really do not want to happen/do, it always ends up happening. It sucks when it happens by chance, but it's even worse when I unintentionally make it happen. It's like my life is freaking Oedipus or something (well, with out the incest and far less killings, but you get the idea).

The truth is, throw me into a new situation, and I freeze - I'm talking full on ice block. It's not like I blow things out of proportion, I constantly remind myself that the worst case scenario is never really that bad. And yet there I'll be, acting like a blooming idiot because my brain got scared and decided to peace out.

It's truly something I hate about myself, but try as I might it remains a part of who I am.

So, should you ever come across me at some sort of function, and see me making a complete fool of myself, just chuck that impression out the window. Because I promise that (given the right circumstances) there could be nothing farther away from who I truely am.


Happy Blogging.

In hiding

Laying on the harsh flat ground
and looking at the sky.
No clouds or starts there to be found,
the pale white hum of an electric firefly.

While my thoughts are swelling
yet hiding from the truth.
I guess there's no telling
if I've set off on something new.

As a spider walks crossed the ceiling
a path he makes alone.
It's obvious I'm done healing,
but this is something I have yet to show.

B-I-N-G-O

Last, night I played bingo. Not regular boring old bingo, but LEGIT bingo.

My old high school has been holding bingo nights as a fundraiser, so my mom and I figured "Why not go? Maybe we will win some money." So we paid the fee to play, and were given a ton of sheets. There were early bird games, triple triple, lotto cards, main games, I could go on and on. It was so overwhelming (luckily, we had one of the vets explain what everything was to us). Whats more, it 'ain't just about making lines anymore. There were corner stamps, crazy kites, six packs, hard way, easy way, odds and evens. Who even came up with all of this stuff? That being said, bingo was intense! Yes, that's right, intense. No wonder little old ladies like it so much. (there were a lot of older people there, many of them playing 4 or 5 cards at once! I could hardly keep up with one card!)


Surprisingly, the most exciting part of the night wasn't the bingo, It was the pull tabs. Pull taps are just like scratchers; uncover a box and see if you win (some of the pull tabs would even reveal numbers, and if you got a bingo on it you would win big bucks). With outrageous cheesy names given to the different types of pull tabs, it was hilarious when they would "go on sale". Everyone would wave money in the air saying "I want some trifecta!" or "Give me 'where's the beef!". Ok, so maybe you had to be there, but it was hilarious.



During a friendly neighbor game (if you are sitting next to the person who wins bingo, you win a package of pull tabs)I just happened to be sitting next to the big winner. While most of the pulls tabs are duds, I managed to win $10.50 (can you say, coffee money?) Not bad for my first time (all though I would mind winning the big prize)

Getting in the spirt!

Well,I've (attempted) to start getting ready for halloween! I have been going through all of the old decorations and costumes, and of course my family and I keep trying to scare each other. We also let my dog try on a costume. Doesnt she look adorable?


My dog, the cat burgler

Happy Halloween everyone!

Detour

Yesterday, my mom and I went to the beach. No, not to swim. It was so nice just standing in the sand, listening to the wind and the waves. Here are some pictures I took.






Aren't these pictures georgous?! Just proof that the beach isn't just a summer stop.Just be sure to watch out for the birds!


My mom, the bird whisperer

Birthday Thoughts..

Today is my 18th birthday. It's crazy, I cant even believe it. Everyone keeps telling me "Be careful, you can go to big girl jail now" which scares the crap out of me, Im just waiting to be framed for some crime.

I really want to order a snuggie or a sham wow or some other infomercial gadet that I dont need simply for the sheer fact that I can.

Another thing I cant wait to buy dry is dry ice. Whats more fun than frozen Carbon Dioxide? It's great for making fog! :P

Today is really scarry for me to think about. I mean, I am an adult now! Ew! Before I know it I'll be 20. Then 30! It's crazy to imagine, considering I still think of myself like a 15 year old. I feel like I keep waiting for something crazy and drasrtic to happen, Like I need to be brought into abulthood by being struck by lightning or something. Even though I know that the years really just run together..

to be continued..

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