January 24

So Tired. Ughhh.. And, my attempts at naping were futile, with my sisters phone in the next room going off about every two secondds. I have to start thinking about an 8 hour shift at work tonight. Double Ughhh. I honestly have no business working around children - or even worse, their parents tonight. I can just tell that my facade of calm, cool, and collected, which normally gets me by just fine, is gonna snap the second someone asks for more lettuce or tries to sweet talk a free bracelet out of me.

Maybe I could just tell my boss all this. They would understand, right?

Haha. Yeah, right.

I do, for the most part, enjoy working. Generally speaking, it is enjoyable, and hardly ever do I have a "booring" shift. (This doesnt necessarily guarentee that they are always "fun") Usually my enjoyment level is directly effected by whom Im working with. hmmm. who am I working with tonight?? Nope. Dont remember I know it probably shouldnt be that way, but it is.

All I know is, I've got an hour to get some what happy. Because going into my place of business unhappy (yes, I know I have failed to mention excatly where it is that I work, but I do have SOME privacy) is suicide. It just wont work.

Here's to sleep.

Current Song Obsession

I know it's not literary genius, but my brain can only accomplish so much at 8:00 in the morning.



You never know what can happen
but, you never know what wont
The stories that you tell only madden
where do I find this hope

You look at me without fear
and I wish I could run - run away
I can see you pacing in the mirror
those practiced words, I wish I could say

Laughter can only cover
what it is we already know
while I fall into the cold sky's cover
I pray your warmth doesn't let me go.

Night Life

Have you ever pointed your camera at a bright light, and then shaken the camera while taken the picture? I know, you're probably thinking "Of course not! That's ridiculous!" But the results are amazing.







These are all picture of car headlights or street lamps that I saw on a night walk with my dog. In my opinion, the nighttime is one of the best times to walk. everything is calm and quiet. The cold air is refreshing, and even here in suburbia, the stars are always beautiful.

Oh, sleep.

Today I did something I have never done before. Something so shocking,it left me more than a little stunned, and required several double takes to verify its occurrence.

And it all started with a phone call - one I didn't answer.

When I first heard the phone ring, I pulled away from my dream about a friend yelling at me just enough to discover that me feet were cold, and curl into a warmer position.

The second time the phone rang (or was it the third - or even the fourth?), I found myself quickly yanked from the stroll in a greenhouse that I had been on while deep asleep, and quickly discovered that the sinus headache I went to sleep with had not gone away. I rolled back into bed, intending to sleep some more, when I heard the distant voice of my mother calling my name from the answering machine.

I slid out of bed and checked the clock on my way to pick up the phone. It was positioned at 1:30, and all I thought was "gotta put a new battery in that thing".

I picked up the phone, and while talking with my mother I looked at the clock on the oven. 1:30. I went and grabbed my cellphone. 1:30.

"Hey mom, what time is it?" "It's 1:30". Let the shock commence.

By now most of you are probably just as confused as I am. "Whats the big deal? So you slept in, you are on break." is probably along the lines of what you are thinking. But the thing is, I don't sleep in. At least, not by other people's standards. Nine o'clock is considered really late to sleep in for me (I blame my parents for programing me to always wake up at the crack of dawn. No offense, mom and dad :)

Suffice to say, this is a new 'sleep in world record' for me, one that makes me ask "what time will I wake up tomorrow??", because I'm definitely not going to be able to get to sleep at my preferred time of 10:00 tonight.

I love target.

This tag was on a jelwed headband I saw at target. It's nice to know that they think people should dress their age.

Images of the Season

It's January, and much of the nation is still very much in winter. But southern califoria? In the sun, the temperature reaches into the 80s.

One Heck of a Noun

Tonight, at midnight, something crazy will happen - the end of a decade. Say it with me now: d e c a d e. Wow, what a word.

Being only 18, this is the first entire decade that I have seen come and go (although, having been born in 1991, it's really more of a technicality). I keep trying to think of these past ten years in the same way that I (and many others) think of those great decades past that I did not live through, like the 80s. What are the movies that people will tell their kids that they have to watch. What books from this era will they force their kids to read? What styles will we make fun of, and what will we say "if only we had seen that comming" for the years ahead?

And, perhaps the most important, what the heck are we going to call this decade?!?! The two thousands? Come on, we've got to be able to come up with something better than that.

All jokes aside, the end of a decade only occurs once in a blue moon - and since today happens to be both (yes, the last full moon of 2009 is also a "blue" one), I have come to the conclusion that today (and the new year to come) represents a new begining in so many more ways than just the annual "new year". It it a new decade. A new ten years with new chances and oppurtunities. It's no secret that 2009 has been both a difficult and assuredly significant year. But now we all have the chance at an especially special late christmas gift: a new start.

Just what we all need.

Here it is

It it almost new year's eve, and has been seemingly eons since my last serious blog post. I feel like I owe you (are you still there, readers?) a all an explanation. my computer crashed or, god forbid, I had a family crisis. Heck, even I caught the swine flu would be sufficient.

But in truth, it has simply been the I'm ridiculously busy - oh wait, now I'm not syndrome. You know the one; when you go from not having even a moment to think, to having so much time that you just cant bring yourself to do anything. You haven't heard of this serious disorder? Ask your closest college student - I promise they can fill you in.

So, in mid December I found myself six feet under in papers and projects (along with the craziness of work. But that dear readers, is another post for another day) that the the stress of finals was practically oozing out of my pores. (not pretty) Luckily, all of this stress wasn't for not. Although I am still waiting on one grade, my tentative gpa so far is a 3.8.

When Christmas break hit, I embraced the chance for a break from school with open arms. (actually, it was more like me sprinting towards it, no doubt with a manic look in my eye, and threatening it if it didn't hurry up and come already). So what have I been doing for the past few weeks? Well, with the exception of working about twenty hours a week, absolutely nothing. And it has been awesome.

But now, I'm glad to say, I'm back dear readers (if you haven't lost faith in me, that is.) and my new year's resolution to you all is a minimum of one new post every other day (although I really do want to have one everyday). They may not be works of "literary genius" (remember those early days when everything was ambiguous and - dare I say it - "deep") but hopefully they will be entertaining and worth your time.

So with that, I will wish you all a happy new year, and urge you to check back soon.

Update

First off, let me appolagize for the long gap between posts. Between work, school (and finals comming up), and getting sick I really haven't had the chance to post anything.

Well, Its been nearly a week since Thanksgiving. Is anyone done digesting their food yet? haha. This year, I was soooooo ready for the holiday.after a 30 hour work week and school crazies ness, I was exstatic for 3 days of doing (wait for it) Nothing!

Okay okay, so it's not like I sat on the couch all weekend. Here is a run down of what I did:
~Drove up to the grandparents house and got to see family
~Ate
~Went Antique-ing
~played lots of trivial prusit
~made an outdoor camping style breakfast with my family
~got second place (just barely lost to first) in the annual family cook of. (Yes, my family does have an annual cook off. We are just that cool. You are jealous :] )
-and finally-
~Racked up some couch time!

I will be sure to add some pictures of the weekend soon.

What did you do?