I'm drowning you out with music
because I dont care what you have to say.
Sometimes when You're around, I just loose it.
And other times I'm begging you to stay.
But now I'm leaving.
Locking the door and keeping the key.
Because you're just so damn color blind
and you dont even care to see.
I hate how complicated this all became,
I hate how simple you pretend it to be.
I hate how you cant see this flame
and how you make me pull out that key.
Because I'm turning off the music now,
I'm finally ready to talk.

Beautiful Nothing

This one goes out to all of you
are the words I slowly start to think
as I gaze out at a beautiful nothing
in the midst of which I start to sink.
And as I turn and hear your voice
that odd remembrance I find
because it seems so often we don't have a choice
when you go back to the front of the line.
But while I just stare at the ground,
because i find it holds so much,
I realize exactly how much has been found
and how we almost seem to touch.

I wish things would go back to the way they were,
but I know they never will.
To much was lost in translation, so much you didnt hear,
and now just a hole you've left to fill.

So as I sit there on the ground,
and hold my face in my hands,
I cant help but think of all that was found.
What has happened to my plans?

Because you struck me as something different,
a being much needed at the time.
But now all thats left is a trail thats burnt,
on all that has passed with time.

Goodbye

As the shadows slowly fall
and all that we know lifts away
I can still hear that familiar call
begging me to stay.
And as I gaze amongst it all
I cant find those words to say.
Because I'm stuck against a wall
grasping a fabric that's begun to fray.
Because, the magnitude of what's happened stands so tall,
and its changed me in every way.
I will never forget those moments, even as these tears fall,
and keep those memories with me everyday.

Finding Something New

just when I least expect it
you start to drift right back to me
I've tried to keep so protected
but then you set me free

and I, I dont know where this will go
and you, you try not to let it show
but we, we can be everything
the space between what lies underneath
and all that others see

the lights are turned out in my mind
because the switch I can not find
but suddenly there is a bright light
and its you, its us, its right

and I, I dont know where this will go
and you, you try not to let it show
but we, we can be everything
the space between what lies underneath
and all that others see

Im here, reaching out for your hand
and by your side I'll always stand
but by the way I think you should know,
that my hearts warm grasp will never let go.

just when I least expect it
you start to drift right back to me
I've tried to keep so protected
but then you set me free

Getting Out

I dont need this,
cant take it any longer.
And yet I keep getting pulled back to that wish
But this patience has made me stronger.

And I want to just be free
but in a way I guess I am
I dont really need anything other than me
but every now and then it's nice to have a fan.

But at the same time I dont want to stop it
I just want it to grow
perhaps its because I know it woud never fit
in the life I currently know.

And now I'm sitting here
in that all to familair spot
as I dream of a day when I'll forget that fear
and escape this battle that I have long fought.

This I promise you
to follow you where ever
to always be true
to be there when ever
if I could only find you

and I promise that I wont go
if you would just do the same for me
and I hope that you will always know
that it is with you that I am finally free
if only your face would show

because when god finds
that the time is right
and we can follow the signs
and you are there in my sight
we can have nothing but time
and let forever take flight

Getting through

i'm trying to get through to you
but my mouth is wired shut
trying to tell you all you do
that great warmth and that deep cut
because, you're just like a roller coaster
and yes I know its cliche
but everytime you let me in closer
you suddenly push me away
but sometimes I think I should just leave
but then I start to forget
when I see your heart on your sleeve
and I know I cant have that regrett

these shivers are crawling up my spine
down my throat and into my heart
I'm not quite sure if I am fine
if this is some strange fresh start

and my fingers are struggling
to grasp the meanings of those words
and this strange fear is surging
as I find myself trapped amongst the herds

and it turns out
that I dont know anything about anything
and Im trying so hard not to shout
because for some reason, Im finding it means everything

I'm standing here screaming
but you still cant see me
because you're asleep - you're dreaming
of a day where my face you wont see?

there is so much frustration
because you're love is much to easily lost
and I just cant stop chasing
but at what cost?