Thursday, December 31, 2009

One Heck of a Noun

Tonight, at midnight, something crazy will happen - the end of a decade. Say it with me now: d e c a d e. Wow, what a word.

Being only 18, this is the first entire decade that I have seen come and go (although, having been born in 1991, it's really more of a technicality). I keep trying to think of these past ten years in the same way that I (and many others) think of those great decades past that I did not live through, like the 80s. What are the movies that people will tell their kids that they have to watch. What books from this era will they force their kids to read? What styles will we make fun of, and what will we say "if only we had seen that comming" for the years ahead?

And, perhaps the most important, what the heck are we going to call this decade?!?! The two thousands? Come on, we've got to be able to come up with something better than that.

All jokes aside, the end of a decade only occurs once in a blue moon - and since today happens to be both (yes, the last full moon of 2009 is also a "blue" one), I have come to the conclusion that today (and the new year to come) represents a new begining in so many more ways than just the annual "new year". It it a new decade. A new ten years with new chances and oppurtunities. It's no secret that 2009 has been both a difficult and assuredly significant year. But now we all have the chance at an especially special late christmas gift: a new start.

Just what we all need.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Here it is

It it almost new year's eve, and has been seemingly eons since my last serious blog post. I feel like I owe you (are you still there, readers?) a all an explanation. my computer crashed or, god forbid, I had a family crisis. Heck, even I caught the swine flu would be sufficient.

But in truth, it has simply been the I'm ridiculously busy - oh wait, now I'm not syndrome. You know the one; when you go from not having even a moment to think, to having so much time that you just cant bring yourself to do anything. You haven't heard of this serious disorder? Ask your closest college student - I promise they can fill you in.

So, in mid December I found myself six feet under in papers and projects (along with the craziness of work. But that dear readers, is another post for another day) that the the stress of finals was practically oozing out of my pores. (not pretty) Luckily, all of this stress wasn't for not. Although I am still waiting on one grade, my tentative gpa so far is a 3.8.

When Christmas break hit, I embraced the chance for a break from school with open arms. (actually, it was more like me sprinting towards it, no doubt with a manic look in my eye, and threatening it if it didn't hurry up and come already). So what have I been doing for the past few weeks? Well, with the exception of working about twenty hours a week, absolutely nothing. And it has been awesome.

But now, I'm glad to say, I'm back dear readers (if you haven't lost faith in me, that is.) and my new year's resolution to you all is a minimum of one new post every other day (although I really do want to have one everyday). They may not be works of "literary genius" (remember those early days when everything was ambiguous and - dare I say it - "deep") but hopefully they will be entertaining and worth your time.

So with that, I will wish you all a happy new year, and urge you to check back soon.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


First off, let me appolagize for the long gap between posts. Between work, school (and finals comming up), and getting sick I really haven't had the chance to post anything.

Well, Its been nearly a week since Thanksgiving. Is anyone done digesting their food yet? haha. This year, I was soooooo ready for the holiday.after a 30 hour work week and school crazies ness, I was exstatic for 3 days of doing (wait for it) Nothing!

Okay okay, so it's not like I sat on the couch all weekend. Here is a run down of what I did:
~Drove up to the grandparents house and got to see family
~Went Antique-ing
~played lots of trivial prusit
~made an outdoor camping style breakfast with my family
~got second place (just barely lost to first) in the annual family cook of. (Yes, my family does have an annual cook off. We are just that cool. You are jealous :] )
-and finally-
~Racked up some couch time!

I will be sure to add some pictures of the weekend soon.

What did you do?

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

To Write Love on her Arms

Today is TWLOHA day. For those of you who dont know, To Write Love on Her Arms is a non profit organization, which raises money to increase awarness and support for those dealing with depression, substance abuse, and suicide. (more info. on their vision can be found at

Through out my years in high school and now in college I have seen both directly (people whom I know and see often) and indirectly (people whom I run into from time to time, and even people who I dont know) the consequences that all of these issues have on those involved and the people around them. Depression and addiction is a dangerous slope- one that is almost impossible to escape with out some form of help. Many people who are dealing with these issues find themselves feeling utterly alone and lost, and I feel that it is up to all of us to offer a hand in help and friendship, and say "it's ok, I'm here". That's why I'm asking all you out there in blog land to join me today in writing the word LOVE on your arms. And when someone stops and asks what it is there for, tell them about TWLOHA, or you could even give them a copy of this post, because awarness is the first step.


Help, just like healing, happens one step at a time.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

It's Just Hot Air

TO: People everywhere
FROM: Little old me
RE: The Greatest thing since sliced bread?
DATE: November 7, 2009

We all get a big head every now and then-but you've always got to keep yourself in check. Remember, the best leaders are the ones who are willing to follow.

Friday, November 6, 2009

For the most part, I like to consider myself a friendly, confident person. And looking back at some of the things I have accomplished in my 18 years so far, it seems to fit the bill. Or at least it did. You see, usually when I get started with something, I stick it out for a very long time; but sometimes, it's easy to forget that the way I end things is never the way I begin them.

Another little tid-bit about me: if there is ever something that I decide I really do not want to happen/do, it always ends up happening. It sucks when it happens by chance, but it's even worse when I unintentionally make it happen. It's like my life is freaking Oedipus or something (well, with out the incest and far less killings, but you get the idea).

The truth is, throw me into a new situation, and I freeze - I'm talking full on ice block. It's not like I blow things out of proportion, I constantly remind myself that the worst case scenario is never really that bad. And yet there I'll be, acting like a blooming idiot because my brain got scared and decided to peace out.

It's truly something I hate about myself, but try as I might it remains a part of who I am.

So, should you ever come across me at some sort of function, and see me making a complete fool of myself, just chuck that impression out the window. Because I promise that (given the right circumstances) there could be nothing farther away from who I truely am.

Happy Blogging.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

In hiding

Laying on the harsh flat ground
and looking at the sky.
No clouds or starts there to be found,
the pale white hum of an electric firefly.

While my thoughts are swelling
yet hiding from the truth.
I guess there's no telling
if I've set off on something new.

As a spider walks crossed the ceiling
a path he makes alone.
It's obvious I'm done healing,
but this is something I have yet to show.

Friday, October 30, 2009


Last, night I played bingo. Not regular boring old bingo, but LEGIT bingo.

My old high school has been holding bingo nights as a fundraiser, so my mom and I figured "Why not go? Maybe we will win some money." So we paid the fee to play, and were given a ton of sheets. There were early bird games, triple triple, lotto cards, main games, I could go on and on. It was so overwhelming (luckily, we had one of the vets explain what everything was to us). Whats more, it 'ain't just about making lines anymore. There were corner stamps, crazy kites, six packs, hard way, easy way, odds and evens. Who even came up with all of this stuff? That being said, bingo was intense! Yes, that's right, intense. No wonder little old ladies like it so much. (there were a lot of older people there, many of them playing 4 or 5 cards at once! I could hardly keep up with one card!)

Surprisingly, the most exciting part of the night wasn't the bingo, It was the pull tabs. Pull taps are just like scratchers; uncover a box and see if you win (some of the pull tabs would even reveal numbers, and if you got a bingo on it you would win big bucks). With outrageous cheesy names given to the different types of pull tabs, it was hilarious when they would "go on sale". Everyone would wave money in the air saying "I want some trifecta!" or "Give me 'where's the beef!". Ok, so maybe you had to be there, but it was hilarious.

During a friendly neighbor game (if you are sitting next to the person who wins bingo, you win a package of pull tabs)I just happened to be sitting next to the big winner. While most of the pulls tabs are duds, I managed to win $10.50 (can you say, coffee money?) Not bad for my first time (all though I would mind winning the big prize)

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Getting in the spirt!

Well,I've (attempted) to start getting ready for halloween! I have been going through all of the old decorations and costumes, and of course my family and I keep trying to scare each other. We also let my dog try on a costume. Doesnt she look adorable?

My dog, the cat burgler

Happy Halloween everyone!


Yesterday, my mom and I went to the beach. No, not to swim. It was so nice just standing in the sand, listening to the wind and the waves. Here are some pictures I took.

Aren't these pictures georgous?! Just proof that the beach isn't just a summer stop.Just be sure to watch out for the birds!

My mom, the bird whisperer

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Birthday Thoughts..

Today is my 18th birthday. It's crazy, I cant even believe it. Everyone keeps telling me "Be careful, you can go to big girl jail now" which scares the crap out of me, Im just waiting to be framed for some crime.

I really want to order a snuggie or a sham wow or some other infomercial gadet that I dont need simply for the sheer fact that I can.

Another thing I cant wait to buy dry is dry ice. Whats more fun than frozen Carbon Dioxide? It's great for making fog! :P

Today is really scarry for me to think about. I mean, I am an adult now! Ew! Before I know it I'll be 20. Then 30! It's crazy to imagine, considering I still think of myself like a 15 year old. I feel like I keep waiting for something crazy and drasrtic to happen, Like I need to be brought into abulthood by being struck by lightning or something. Even though I know that the years really just run together..

to be continued..

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Video Message of the Day - 10/21/09

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Me and my fam.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Monday, October 12, 2009

Good Reads

How was everyone's weekend? Mine was great. Care t o guess why? This weekend, i read two complete books in two days! I know, impressive.

The books I read were The Summoning and The Awakening by Kelly Armstrong. the first book (summoning) follows a girl named Chloe, who one day starts seeing ghosts. She is then put in a home for disturbed teens, tagged as a schizophrenic, and left to "heal". The only problem is, Chloe isn't actually mentally ill, and she suspects that some of the other kids in the home aren't quite what they seem either.

The second book (awakening) continues Chloe's story, and chronicles an adventure that her and her new found friends must embark on - their lives depend on it.

I really enjoyed these books. They have a nice dose of the "supernatural" which I love reading, and still manage to break past the conventional pattern that I (and others?) have started to see everywhere. (What can I say, I guess everyone wants to be the next Twilight?) These stories are different, and full of twists that I didn't expect (which is saying something, because usually I'm pretty good at telling what will happen next in a story). So, I am recommending them to all of you out there, and of course, I'm always open to hearing what all you guys are reading!

Friday, October 9, 2009

Photos of the Day

What I saw today: 10-9-2009

As always, all pictures (unless otherwise noted) were taken and are copyrighted by me.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Things To Do

Today, jump for joy.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

I've come to realize..

This is a quiz that I came across on facebook, and I thought it was nice and kind of different. Fill in your own answers.

1. I've come to realize that my height..
is not going to change... unless I'm wearing heels.

2. I've come to realize that my job...
ahhhh. job..

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
I follow the speed limit to a t, and I have a minor heart attack when I run a yellow light.

4. I've come to realize that I need....

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
nothing that wasnt broken from the start

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...
people take things for granted.

7. I've come to realize that money....
comes and goes. Be smart with it ;)

8. I've come to realize that certain people...
will just never understand me, nor want to

9. I've come to realize that I'll always ...
give love too easily

10. I've come to realize that my siblings...
dont hate me even when she says so

11. I've come to realize that my mom...
is the bestest

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone...
is something that I hardly ever use

13. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...
I was awake?

14. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep..
I was slightly dissappointed

15. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...
that I just remembered how much next week is going to suck

16. I've come to realize that my dad...
is just like my sister

17. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...
Im wasting

18. I've come to realize that today...
was pretty tiring

19. I've come to realize that tonight...
is going to be less than planned

20. I've come to realize that tomorrow...
is going to be... stressful

21. I've come to realize that I really want to...
go dancing :)

22. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is...
no one

23. I've come to realize that life...
goes on

24. I've come to realize that this weekend...
is going to be just like every other weekend

25. I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset...
is music that isnt sad

26. I've come to realize that my friends...
are great <3

27. I've come to realize that this year...
is going to be like a repeat.. my life is a circle

28. I've come to realize that my ex...
is a part of my history

29. I've come to realize that maybe I should...
have an actual conversation with someone at my school

30. I've come to realize that I love...

31. I've come to realize that I don't understand...
people who just forget

32. I've come to realize my past...
is really funny and pretty emvarassing to look back on

33. I've come to realize that parties...
are something that I havent gone to in a long time

34. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...
of snakes

35. I've come to realize that my life...
doesnt make sense..yet

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Video Message of the day

Warning: today's video includes pimpkin violence!

Have a good weekend everyone :)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Things To Do

Be in a zombie march!! The other day I heard an advertisement for a Zombie March that was being held in hollywood. Unfortunatly, I couldnt go, but doesnt that sound fun?! Ok, so maybe it's just me being crazy, but dressing up in torn clothes with ketchup blood and walking (well, more like "lurching". zombies dont exactly walk) around in public areas seems just crazy enough that it could turn out to be spectacularly fun! (at the very least it would make for an intresting story)

So, it is my goal to round up some of my friends and have a zombie march of my own, and I encourage all of you to go do one too, just for the heck of it!

Things I Love!

Trend alert! One of my favorite looks for fall is none other than ther (drum roll please) Man Jacket!! Ok, ok, so I'm sure there is some more technical name for it, but man jacket serves the purpose. Here are two style for you to consider:

1. The lumberjack/skater jacket.

It is especially cute when you pair it with girly pieces.

2. The introspective coffe drinking jacket.

It gives a more put together look.

Want to get a hold of a jacket like this? They can be pricy in stores, so why not get started at your local thrift store? But remember, you wont find these in the girl's section!

The Driving Diaries

Today, I realized just how much driving I do, especially considering I haven't had my license for all that long. Driving to school, dropping off my sister, and going on Taco Bell runs (all of which are very regular occurrences) can really make driving seem like a chore. But today when I was on my way home from school - with the radio turned up and the windows rolled down - driving was just fun. Do you ever get the feeling that you just need a breeze? It's so hard to explain, but sometimes I feel like one of those little dolls that get really big when you put them in water; The right thing can just fill me up with happiness, to the point where I just want to smile.

It just felt so great being in my little space, doing my thing and enjoying myself. No wonder driving is considered such a rite of passage. It really is a little bit of Independence. And, as much as I sometimes hate it, there are also times when I love it.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Video Message of the Day - 9/30/2009

Today I am starting a new daily post, the Video Message of the day. It could be something inspirational, it could be funny, it could be a music video, or just something interesting.

My first video post is one that I'm sure that many of youo have seen, but it's also one of my favorites. So sit back, relax, and laugh your head off :)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Things To Do

Go to a thrift store.

Who knows what you will find?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thursday: also known as T.V. night!

Seriously though, am I the only one who has noticed how many great shows are on on Thursdays? I would think that tivo's everywhere should be going crazy! (I however, do not have one). So for those of you who are not familiar with the many great shows on tonight, I have decided to write all about them here.

1. The Vampire Diaries The CW 8:00

The show features a high school who is torn between two vampire brothers. Between dead parents, drugs, "mysterious killings", and a psychic best friend, the show is anything but boring.

While it may be forever doomed to be compared to twilight (note the resemblance of one of the main characters, Stefan, to Twilight's Edward) the show is actually based on a series of books which were written before Twilight ever was. Sure the two have some similarities, but I know all my girls out there don't mind another hot vampire falls in love with human girl story. Right ladies?

2.Community NBC 9:30/8:30 central
This show fallows a guy named Jeff and his fellow classmates. Shady, lazy, and seemingly uncaring of what is "right" or "wrong", Jeff finds himself back in school. The show includes every stereotype (as much as I hate the word) that you find at community college, which are each portrayed both truthfully, and comically.

3. Project Runway Lifetime, 10:00
What girl doesn't love this show? It manages to retain everything that we love about reality shows (competition, skill, real people, excitement) without feeling like another cheesy, scripted attempt to make money. Of course, lets not forget it's fabulous hosts Heidi Clum and Tim Gund, who really are the backbone of the show.

4. SkinsBBC America, check your local listings

This is a show that I just discovered (mostly because until recently, I didn't know that my house got the channel BBC America). The show revolves around several teens and things that they go through. I think one of the reasons that I enjoy this show is because the characters in it are nothing like myself. The drink, do drugs, have sex. At first, I was a little shocked, but there really is a lot more to the show. It is filled with drama, but in a good way.

5. The Office NBC 9:00

Chronicaling the day to day happenings at Dunder Mifflin Paper Company, there is no doubt that The Office has been popular with many people. While it's specific style of comedy is definetly not enjoyed by everyone, Office is assuradly unlike most other shows on t.v. From it's characters, to "breaking the fourth wall", to the "I cant believe that just happened" moments, the office is very entertaining.

6. Everything Else
There are many, many other good shows on on Thursday evenings, the above are simply the ones I watch. From Survivor, NCIS, Grey's Anatomy, to Fringe there is definetly something on for everyone. So, check your local listings people!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

We Can Dance if we Want To!

Do you ever just want to get up and DANCE?? Dancing is one of my favorite things to do, and I do it often (however poorly, might I add). I really don't think there is anything more pure than a release of energy like dancing, or singing, or what ever it is you do. When you can express yourself in a way that transcends the normal confines of human communication, well, there is something truly beautiful and awe inspiring about that.

I also love the power that dancing has on my mood. I honestly had a terrible day today at school (some events occurred in one of my classes that I wont boor you with talking about) ans I was so upset when I got home. You know what I did? I turned on some music, and DANCED it out, complete with a little bit of lip singing. And now, I just as good as ever.

So never be afraid to bust a move, no matter who is watching. And remember, when in doubt, dance it out!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

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one of the blogs I follow is having a great give away. Check it out!!

happy blogging!

Friday, September 11, 2009

North Star

North star, north star
-why do you have to stay so far?
I wish i could fly up to where you are
-and hang there for a while.

I'd look back down upon the world
-some tiny orb that's being hurled
through a univere not yet unfurled
-just some cosmic mystery.

Today Is..

September 11, 2009.

8 years have gone by since the terrorist attack on the world trade center, when approximately 3,000 people lost their lives. That morning, September 11, 2001 is a day I will never forget.

And yet, in all truthfulness, I almost forgot that today was the anniversary of that event. It is (especially for a busy college student) so easy to just get in a pattern and go through the motions, that you don't think about little things like the date. So when I looked at my calendar yesterday, at first, I didn't believe it. But, after a blink or two I realized - today is that day.

It seems to me, that for those who were old enough to remember that day (and there are many who are just a year or two younger than me don't. But after all, I was only 9 when it happened) will never forget exactly what they were doing when they heard the news. I know I never will.

My mother was getting myself and the neighborhood kids who she took care of ready for school. I remember walking into the living room to ask her if she could do my hair, and seeing her and one of the other kids sitting staring at the TV. Just, staring. So, I stared too, and watched as the plane flew into the first tower, and it collapsed. And then the second tower. I also remember all of the different reactions people had. Some would cry, others display anger toward anyone, and anything they associated with the terrorist who had caused the attack. I just remember feeling numb. Constantly asking myself "Who would do this? Why?". When I realized that in launching their attack, the terrorist had also killed themselves, it only made me more confused. I was pretty smart for a nine year old, and even in my confusion, I still had one important question. One that no one else seemed to answer. "How does someone become so angry, or so sad, or whatever emotion it could possibly be, to do something like this? How could anyone reach that point?"

One of the best things I remember about that day, was what followed in the weeks and months after. Patriotic songs could be heard on every station, people pulled out the American flag, they started to help each other, care for each other. Love each other. I guess it's once again the beauty with the disaster. The yin with the yang.

If there is one hope that I have for the world, it is too remember those couple of months after September 11, 2001. To remember how we felt towards our neighbors, towards strangers. That kind of love and care is something that one should never loose. I realize that if someone were to read this from another country, it might sound like I am very much supporting America, and in a way I am. But, it's so much more than that. I hope that one day we wont just think of each other as American, Asian, Middle Eastern, etc. nor think of ourselves as Christians, or Jews, or Muslims. I hope that, one day, we will simply think of each other as friends, and stand up, as citizens of the world. As an "us", not a "them".

So, at the end of a day of remembering, lets promise to never forget.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Alright, I'm about to let a little bit of my inner nerd show here for you guys. Part 1

I have been really excited about something lately. Halloween. Yes, yes, I realize that it is just the beginning of September and not near enough to October 31 to even think about being excited for it. Yet, every year during late August, the same feeling washes over me. I get random urges to watch horror flicks, and read magazines like Home and Garden looking for things like recipes for "spooktacular treats" or "Halloween party tips". I even go as far as to make up excuses to go to the local party store more than necessary, just so I can see what kind of decorations and costumes they have. Now first off let me say that I am not some psychopath who loves severed hands, or someone who believes in the occult. I'm really just your average 17 year old girl.

I have often speculated as to why I love Halloween so much. Maybe because it's close to my birthday? Maybe it's some deep rooted psychological, thing, that has to do with my love of sweets? I honestly don't think it's either. And while my love of the day is usually focused into a few months, at any time in the year I can be found watching shows like Ghost Hunters or Ten Scariest Places on Earth.

But so far, I have been able to narrow down the reason for my Halloween-itis to two possible answeres. And, most likely, it's a little bit of both.

The first, is the time. Fall is absolutely my favorite season of the year. I love everything about it. From the way the leaves change, to the weather, to being able to wear slightly warmer clothes to, well, what do you know? One of the main holidays in autumn is none other than Halloween.

The second and more "philosophical" reason for my Halloween love comes from my "what if..?" complex. I can so easily be caught up in the fascination of something that is so different from the day to day, that I just cant help but be intrigued. And then, when you take something that seems totally impossible (like say a vampire), and then find that there is, in fact, some kind of historical story behind it (such as how the name Dracula supposedly came from Vlad Dracul, once the ruler of Turkey, who is notorious for his violence and blood lust. Oh, and one of his favorite past times was to impale prisoners heads on sticks). Well, that just gets me excited, and much more interested at the fact that, maybe all of this crazy stuff didn't just pop out of someones head one day. Maybe, just maybe there really is something to all of this.

That's not to say that I believe in vampires and zombies and all of that stuff, because I don't. But to think that all of that stuff isn't just made up, that it's really linked to an ancient society, or a real person, it's just incredible to think about.

Needless to say, my anticipation of the day is only going to grow as it gets closer. And, you can expect more posts on the topic. Such as my tips on great and unique costumes, the historical background of the things associated with halloween, cool decorating ideas, and much more.

I cant wait!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Have you ever wondered...

...Why some times it seems like destruction begets beauty? See L.A. currently dealing with massive wild fires. See Mission Viejo. Far away enough to not worry about being in danger of said fire, yet close enough to see the effects it has on the sky. Vibrant with a distinct red and blue in the evening, a result from the ash in the air. It is so beautiful. This same idea can be true of the written word. How many beautiful songs and poems have been written out of pain and misery? There are even some like that on this site. Maybe it's just the world trying to even itself out, a yin and yang if you will. The beauty with the pain, the good with the bad.

Whatever it is, it's just something to think about.

Friday, August 28, 2009

The Game

Waiting for time to tick away
I'll even take another day
when this game will be over
this trick that you've played

And on this old worn sofa I sit
trying to come out of it
still locked inside what has been
and hoping to forget

With every chance that passes by
I cant help but wonder why
I am always someones second choice
this I cant deny

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


Come, grab my hand
just stay with me and don't let go
while we're here, right now
all we've got here is nine months to know

And as we both move closer
to that dark foreboding day
both anxious, yet still waiting
for what the other will say

So stop, and don't move
Please find a way to stay
Because with the whole world waiting
With their - rules, and game to play
I don't want this to turn into
the memory of a day

Lets see..

Well, I'm half way through my first week of college, and It has definitely been...interesting. I like most of my teachers (most), I joined a club (environmental awareness :D ), met a couple of "characters" (if you know what I mean), I've already been assigned and written my first essay (On grammar. I really hope I don't use incorrect grammar in it.. that would be bad), A stranger told me they love me, and.. I think that's about it.. All in all I have enjoyed the first couple of days, and I really hope I will be able to make new friends and really become a part of the campus (as well as do well in all of my classes). I suppose that for every moment of sheer frustration there will be one of enjoyment. At least I hope that everything will balance out that way. What I can say is this, I really wish that people would stop telling me that "college isn't high school". Um, hello? That's why it's called college! It's not like I haven't already spent the summer taking a class, I think I get that they are different.; )

Well anyways, I have had a good laugh reading this over. Hope this finds everyone doing well.

Today I will end this with 2 quotes from some of my Professors, just to give you a little idea of what I'm in store for this semester.

"You think college is expensive? Wait until you see the price of ignorance"

"The number 1 is like the planet Pluto.. useless"

Friday, August 21, 2009

I wish it was The Endless Summer

Today is my last weekday of summer. Next up college. I have more than a few trepidations about the up coming school year. Am I going to make new friends? Are my old friends going to forget about me? Am I going to be able to handle my insane amount of units? Will I ever get a job??

This summer has been especially important for me. It has also been incredibly short (switching to a school with a completely different schedule, I lost almost a month of my summer.) I've really tried to make the most of it, And I have. And now, with just a few days left, I'm at a loss for how to spend them. I so badly want to go out with a bang, but all I can think of are things like "I need new notebooks!"

I suppose I have already ended my summer in the ceremonial sense. With a bonfire; exactly the way I started it. As my friends and I all stood around the fire, we knew that this was both the end, and the beginning.

And each of us, were holding the key.

So I guess all that I can do now is just charge into school, and see what's waiting for me.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Do you ever just feel like you are down and out? Like everything is holding you back from doing what you really want to do? I have been feeling like that lately. Actually, I have been feeling like that a lot. But you know, I am not going to give up. Not at all. Because when you feel the way that I feel now, like you are fighting for a lost cause, like it's you against the world - well - those are usually the things that are worth fighting for.

Never stop fighting.

Remember, "All of us are in the gutters. But, some of us are looking at the stars" ~Oscar Wilde.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Good Music

This is a video I recently came across by Ingrid Michaelson. I love her music, and this song is so beautiful! I hope you enjoy!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Things To Do

Go to an out door concert. Even if it's just your neighborhood band. After all, this weekend is the fortieth anniversary of the iconic Woodstock festival.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Being Me...

Sometimes, I have a really hard time thinking of something to write. It's not necessarily that I have a shortage of ideas or anything, but those always seem to come when I am (unfortunately) away from my computer. So this morning, when I was in a mood to write, but finding myself at a loss for ideas, I began to 'blog hop'. Just clicking from blog to blog, seeing if anything would give me any ideas. I found blogs devoted to pictures, some covered with fashion, ones about relationships, a craft blog or two, I even stumbled upon one with stuff I didn't want to see.. It's really quite funny how many blogs there are out there. I sometimes tend to think that I'm "unique" because I have this, a place to write whatever I want, whenever I want, that can be seen by people in any part of the world. And then I find that there are thousands of other people out there, just like me. In a way, it is sort of a comforting thought. Being able to say "I'm not alone in my craziness. There are tons of other people out there who love to keep up a site, just like me". Some of you might find this a little weird.. After all, who wants to be just like everyone else? Don't we all want to be individuals? Special? Well, I've come to find, that trying your hardest to be different, just helps to solidify you as being part of a group. Don't believe me? Just take a look at any high school. Uniqueness travels in groups. And you know what? There isn't anything wrong with that. Humans are social beings, and we are happiest when with others who share goals common to ourselves. So, don't try to stand out because when you are comfortable enough to not worry about blending in, people will start to see (and love) you for what really makes you special.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Things I Love! - August 12, 2009


Peanut Butter

Horseback riding

Vintage Clothes

Frozen Yougurt

Monday, August 10, 2009

I love looking at old stuff. Sometimes, it really makes you wonder what that object has seen, the stories it could tell. Marriages, deaths, maybe even a crazy adventure or two. I think we all have two stories to tell. Yes, two. The one that we leave behind as our legacy, that close family and friends, maybe a few others will always remember us for. And then one that others will imagine long after we're gone. When someone else is left asking "who is that?", with they're imagination to fill in the rest. And I think I'm OK with that.

More than OK.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Things to do

Today, watch the sunset with someone you Love.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Bring out the cake, because guess what I'm celebrating here at the Rhyme and the Reason? Anyone? Yes, that's right, it's our 1 year anniversary!!! I cant believe it's already been a year since I started blogging here. Looking back at all of my previous posts, it's easy to see how much things have changed for me. I love how I can still remember what it was that caused me to write every post, exactly how I was feeling. I love that. I also love how much the blog its self has changed. From the layout, to the traffic, it's been, more than anything else, so much fun! I can remember when my only traffic was from my mom and I, and now I have several followers - who I'm not related to! So, to all you who have been here from early on, and those who are just arriving, I hope you have enjoyed reading my posts, because I sure have enjoyed writing them!

Here's to another year!

Happy Blogging!


Caught between,
an impossibility
and a hard place.
No way that I can find,
out of this race.

Maybe it's just silly me..
in trying to erase
Whatever it is that keeps us -
from falling into place.

Just please, dont tell me,
that these feelings are waste.