January: I remembered why I love Target, went of a night walk, and found a new staple for the blog playlist. I also chopped my extra long hair as I got ready for a new semester of college.
February: Spring caught up with us. This month I found myself utterly confused by the people around me and what motivates their decisions. While this discussion was originally written in the form of an essay, I decided to change the format to a vague poem to keep the situation anonymous in case the people who it was about happened to read this. Maybe some day I'll post the original, maybe I wont. I also had an amazing day.
March: I tested out my photoshop skills and experimented with poetry I had an "adventure" and confessed a "secret", resulting in two of my most visited blog posts. With spring in full swing, I was glad to enjoy more of the usual.
April: I went on a philosophical rant about cartoons that made absolutely no sense. I also took a trip and received a few hugs.
May: I wrote one of my personal favorite poems of the year, as well as one that I can't help but read (in hindsight) to the tune of a coldplay song. I also enjoyed puzzles, and told you all a little more about myself.
June: While I should have been enjoying summer, I was busy (not) enjoying two other things: work and school. On of which inspired frustration, the other - oddly enough - inspired inspired an interesting thought while on break.
July: I tried and failed at poetry slamming.
August: Back to school. I had some struggles with language, went whale watching, and found a new in-class distraction.
September: I had a couple of conflicts with friends, leaving me feeling what can only be described as disillusioned. I recounted one of the most unusual and personally shocking conflicts of the year here, against my better judgement.
October: My favorite month, when fall is in full swing. October left me dealing with even more uncertainty and making some big decisions.
November: November left me feeling the effects of some of my decisions. It also brought more worries.
December: The long fight to the end of the semester comes to an end. It's break. Finally, FINALLY, I can breathe.. At least until spring semester.
The highlighted words are links to the posts from each month that I best feel sum up what I was going through at the time. The process of writing this post has really shed light on everything I have been through in 2010. A big part of me wants to automatically write this year off as a failure, but I'm slowly proving to myself what I HAVE managed to accomplish. I feel like this year, I've really begun to actually fight for the things I want and believe. I have gotten into - even started - a lot of arguments this year not because I wanted a fight, but because I saw that something wasn't right, a double standard, or felt like I was being taken advantage of. I'm trying to think of 2010 as a building year - not necessarily one I will remember in detail, but one that will make the memorable years possible.
So from someone who's always looking to the future, here's to the past.